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Originally Posted by Jacko
Susie,
I wonder if that is part of the problem? I find that excitement in my life breeds energy and enthusiasm....I find I have plenty of energy when dealing with new and interesting things to see or do and NO ENERGY on things that bore me or disinterest me. Does it seem that way to you?
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To some extent, yes.
But, it's always been this way with me, not just now. The huge tasks I've accomplished in life (like shutting down my life in Ohio to move down here, something full of excitement and longing for me) took superhuman effort. Even for things I know I will enjoy, or tasks that I truly WANT to do or finish, I procrastinate and have to force the motivation. I do have to concede that this time of year does make it worse - when it's hotter than blazes and just raising an eyebrow makes me sweat, I'm not motivated to begin much of anything, much less finish it. But even inside in the AC, I can look around and see 100 little things I need to get to, or have already stopped in the middle of doing, and I might get (back) to them or I might not. It embarrasses me and frustrates me, but it's true. However, deadlines are my friends. I'll have everything taken care of (or at least better hidden!
) before I leave for the states in a few weeks, simply because I feel I have to. It'll involve a hundred tricks I've learned to fool myself into submission, but I'll get it done and will be exhausted when I reach my destination.
