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Originally Posted by Susie Q Roo
To some extent, yes.
But, it's always been this way with me, not just now. The huge tasks I've accomplished in life (like shutting down my life in Ohio to move down here, something full of excitement and longing for me) took superhuman effort. Even for things I know I will enjoy, or tasks that I truly WANT to do or finish, I procrastinate and have to force the motivation. I do have to concede that this time of year does make it worse - when it's hotter than blazes and just raising an eyebrow makes me sweat, I'm not motivated to begin much of anything, much less finish it. But even inside in the AC, I can look around and see 100 little things I need to get to, or have already stopped in the middle of doing, and I might get (back) to them or I might not. It embarrasses me and frustrates me, but it's true. However, deadlines are my friends. I'll have everything taken care of (or at least better hidden!  ) before I leave for the states in a few weeks, simply because I feel I have to. It'll involve a hundred tricks I've learned to fool myself into submission, but I'll get it done and will be exhausted when I reach my destination.  |
I think that thing about deadlines was part of the point I was making..I believe many of us stay motivated often because we HAVE to stay motivated...that is why I want to never completely retire...I see so many people who seem frustrated when they don't HAVE to do anything or be anywhere (all the time)...I know...it sounds crazy, but I think it may just be the way some folks are wired.
Also, cuz Linda has been dealing with this...you are also describing what Linda might describe as mild symptoms of depression....
And finally, don't worry about a ting....we are a destination that welcomes exhausted people with open and caring arms!
(and a couple of blueberry mojitos)