I can totally relate to everything you are saying above, Susie. I haven't found a way to conquer it yet, either. I do find that I reach a breaking point of anxiety about all the little things and small messes and unfinished business a few times a year and then I spend some serious time (usually on a weekend, start friday night and just keep at it until i am finished, even if I stay up all night or take a sick day!) getting all caught up and organized again. And it feels so good to be caught up and organized that I always say I won't let it happen again, but I do...
It's a bad habit, I guess - I don't know how else to describe it. And deadlines are king, you're right. I LOVE having company because it spurs me to action, usually...
What I can't understand is that I am organized and in control and caught up and proactive to a fault at work. I guess I get it all out of my system between 9-5 and then I'm done! I dunno.....
But I can totally relate. And the depression thing that Jacko refers to is possible... I have been there too and it all feels kinda the same. I just don't like taking the meds so I don't and whatever will be, will be
